Reflections
The breakup song. Reflections is a very intense and emotional song for me. I remember writing the words in a matter of minutes. Full of emotions, I was weeping while I wrote, I was a mess. But like the tears, the words poured out of me.
During the first few months, many thoughts entered my mind - Was it my fault? what could I have done to prevent this? Could it still be salvaged? Was I the problem? Will we just go back to bad habits again? I don't care, I just want her to be happy again! Will I be able to love again?
While I was dealing with the break up - I was doing a lot of meditation and mindfulness.
These were methods of practice that helped me heal - and that’s what Reflections is about. The initial rawness of the song and emotions - the feeling of never letting someone go.
The journey of the song leads us to the point of self reflection and healing.
Taking the first step towards breathing again, like it’s for the first time.
Lyrics
[Verse 1] My mind is in the zone There's nothing logical Could I have change my ways? I look at you and I don't know her... And I can understand it's over.. [Chorus] My heart is bleeding cause it wants you!! Can't understand it, if I try to! Gone are the days when it was us two! Now I'm alone, but will I get through [Verse 2] Wait, there's, something, I just want to know... Will they notice? feeling insecure.. Take, Back, what was wrong, rotten at the core... I, won't, be the same, shed all my concerns... [End Chorus] My heart is bleeding cause it wants you!! Can't understand it, if I try to! Gone are the days when it was us two! Now I'm alone, but I will get through Cast away the self infliction Mend the heart from what is raw! Clear the smudge of my reflection Breath again like its.. my.. first..